Tell Em Why You Mad...

I cant describe what it feels like when you know your ready to get married. I dont no for sure that everythings gunna be alright, I dont feel that he and I are the "perfect couple". All i know is that me and jamaal feels right, it just feels good. i can just be, just breathe with him. he just absolutely loves everything aboutt me. and im just a regular, boring, dorky, confused girl. Im so difficult and such pain in the ass and he loves it all, all of it no questions. He asks nothing from me. All he wants is me and it blows my mind. Life sucks so much but when me and him are just sitting on the couch together, everything feels so easy. I dont have to try. With every1 else i force it, it feels so hard for any1 to really understand me. Of course people change, as 10 20 30 years go by, people evolve. But the heart of a person, the articoke heart of someone doesnt change. It may get lost, but it never really disappears. If you fall in love with a persons artichoke heart, that shit will last you a life time. idk...hes my best friend. when were not together we miss eachother so bad, when were apart its tourture. I no that if we werent together forever, id spend my whole life missing him. I feel like i meant him for a reason. I feel that god sent us to each other. hes suppose to save me and im suppose to save him. things wont be easy, in fact the hard stuff hasnt even begun yet. Were gunna be apart, were gunna be broke, were gunna struggle. But i still have hope. God gives me that hope.