Tell Em Why You Mad...

I think i need 2 start smoking again. idk wat else 2 do with all this restlessness. i feel like a ticking bomb. i need 2 be entertained 24-7, by something fascinating and intriguing, cause im bored out of my fucking mind. Ahhhhhh!!!

I miss wat it feels like to like a boy. ya no, nuthin crazy, but a crush, when u get butterflies in ur stomach. im so jaded now i dont even remember wat it feels like. what happened 2 the good old days when u liked someone and they liked u, and u flirted endlessly, harmless innocent stuff, that was fun.

On another note, turkey day is upon us. So excited to just be home and not worry about grades and money if only for a few days. Im sick and tired of skool. Not excited about dragging all my bags to and from ny tho. I think im gunna take my sister to see twilight for her birthday. But first im being forced into a dinner with the man whos name is on my birth certificate. I guess that means he wont be joining the rest of my family for the festivities on thurs (typical). I look forward to watching my uncles get shit faced. But all that is still about 12 hrs away, as i am currently trapped at work : (

I dont floss

One of my favorite things to do in the whole world is finding out wat people want/expect me 2 do, and doing the exact opposite of that. Is that dysfunctional? Probably. I cant help myself. When someone tells me to do something, i have the insatiable urge 2 do the complete opposite. If they had never told me 2 do it, i probably wud have on my own.

What is life but a collection of memories? Life as it happens is but a fleeting moment, moments that end just as quickly as they began. Thats why pictures are so wonderful; they capture our moments and keep them even after the memories fade...