Tell Em Why You Mad...

"Yea, its a great thing to be happy, but its so fucking hard"

I try so hard to be happy. I try so hard 2 be a good person. But i havent seen an ounce of the benefit in it. I feel as though ive earned my right to be happy, to be loved. But it just isnt happening that way. In fact, ive never felt so alone. Ive never felt so unloved, so not cared about. It makes me just wanna give up. Im so tired of trying. Its really starting to take a toll on me, its like i dont no wats wat anymore. I know it sounds pathetic, but every1 has needs, and when im in a relationship i need a certain amount of love, care, and affection. Period, i just do. And im not getting it and i dont no why! Ive earned it, ive fought for this through everything and i still cant get wat i need. Its hard enuf 2 be happy as it is. I feel like crying all the time. Maybe i made a mistake, mabye this isnt wat i thought it was, and mabye its not gunna work. Ive tried so hard i really have, ive given it my all, but its just not enuf. This shit is draining me; i dont know how much longer i can let myself love him

Its interesting to me how the most ignorant people are the ones who think they know the most. That the people who know the least about themselves and operate in the most primal and childish of ways, are the ones who claim such self importance. Scurrying around, drowning in there own insecurity and self doubt. Like animals, ignorant of their own ignorance. Filthy and small minded. And as disgusted as i am by these types of people, i can help but feel bad for them. They repulse people. Trapped in a world of there own delusion and creation, they'll never escape their circumstances. These people flood the clubs searching for the slightest(regardless of how false) self validation from strangers lost in the same abyss. They hate themselves so much they r unable 2 love any1 else. Poison...