Tell Em Why You Mad...

For a while i really thought i made the wrong decision. I doubted myself, thought i was ruining something perfect. But all it took was one conversation to remind me that it wasnt perfect to begin with. i forgot about the problems we had... for the past few months ive been blaming myself for all this, but maybe it was just the inevitable. i forgot how much i sacraficed and the toll it took on me, maybe thats wat lead us 2 this point, not my selfishness. I've made the right decision....in fact a little more distance is in order cause it seems that very little has changed. i cant be in a one sided relationship. i just cant. i feel like love is a constant battle for the upper hand, but im sick of fighting for it. things have always been about every1 else, i always play by every1 elses rules. wat about me, wat about wat i want? when will some one look past my flaws and imperfections and love me anyway? unconditionally? im not perfect, i cant be, i never will be. ive had 2 love others even when they purposfully did things to push me away and not love them!! when will someone do that for me?